Dear God,
I haven't spoken to you in a long time. I'd like to say I just forgot, or that I didn't have time, but then I'd be lying. The truth is I lost faith in you, and for so many reasons. As I've grown older, the corruption and evils of the Catholic church have been revealed to me. Clergyman are power hungry, corrupt, and interpret the Bible to fit their own beliefs- and have been this way the entire history of Christianity. They preach that you love everyone except homosexuals, divorcees, women who get abortions, non-Christians etc. This is so hypocritical, and I would be ashamed to be apart of all that hate and strictness. I have found a haven in my own spirituality through positive thinking, good eating, therpeutic ways of living and meditation. I also haven't spoken to you in so long because life has been so cruel to my family and I these past approx. 4 years. I have been neglected by the medical community up until recently, and now I must suffer the consequences. I developed learning disabilities, and they are only worsening as my treatment progresses, and I have all odds against me for having a baby (Von Willebrand's disease will cause me to bleed out, my heart defect will cause me to have a stroke during childbirth, and my children will be born with the Lyme anitgen and/or Autism). This and many more have convinced me that you have failed me, and may not exist. But another part of me likes to believe this experience will be useful and educational, and I will live the rest of my life healthy and happy. I can only hope this is true.
I am sorry that the corrupt Catholic church has skewed my vision and belief in you, but I will try to see you as you are individually and make an effort to speak to you more often.
-Meg
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